Tuesday, August 27, 2013

How it all exploded

Hey everyone sad news to report, we found out last night that this adoption is definitely not going happen. We obviously are hurting, but feel very protected in the midst of it all. We always knew this was a possibility, but it is still rough.

We found out that there are multiple families who had been promised rights to the child and the mom was apparently expecting to get something out of it somehow.

We are so thankful that we entered in with good boundaries already in place. We didn't give her money. She doesn't know where we live. All that is really lost is the hope that we had for this child to be part of our family and minimal fees to the lawyer to did some calls for us.

On a good note, our home study is done and we are approved for adoption in general. So if we found another private/independent adoption opportunity we could act immediately. You never know what will come up, especially from a "friend of a friend" type of situation and we're willing to look into other opportunities that may come up.

We are going to adopt, just not this little girl, so any funds that were donated will sit in an adoption account until another child comes along. Thank you all SO MUCH for your love, support, and believing we'll be good parents when we get the chance someday.

Things we're thankful for:
We found out now, not at the court date a few weeks from now!

We know where she'll be and its a great situation that actually is an answer to many prayers we prayed for her.

For the comfort of God walking through this with us. We talked about it last night and we really believe that we did what we were supposed to. We had boundaries, were prayerful and felt God's direction. In the midst of it all falling apart He's here too. I feel like in times like these, the hardest situation we've been in, it is our "Isaac". Just like when God asked Abraham if he would give his son, and still follow him even though it meant what he loved most. If this child is taken away will I still trust? Will I still love God? What will spill out from the depths of my soul automatically because it is what is actually there? And at the end of the day God is still Good even though it hurts. I feel His presence more in pain than normal life.

Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Job 5:18... For he wounds, but he binds up; he shatters, but his hands heal.


  1. I'm sorry Holly. My sister adopted and it is a very up and down process. The Lord has the "perfect" child for you and Josh.

  2. Im very sorry for the hurt you both must feel! I pray that God will bring you a baby to love!